Sunday, November 28, 2010

the question of doubts: a psychoanalysis writing based on my stupid day dream.

What would you do if you got a phone call from someone you have a strong feeling for, lets not even talk about the kind of feeling you got. just a feeling. your job is to wait and wait until she calls you back. ok, lets assume that feeling is got this romantic connotation to it. would you just sit there and wait patiently? I did. I waited for exactly an hour and 30 minutes plus some thirty seconds because I think that was the right thing to do.
I feel like this is just a ranting piece right now instead of a constructive criticism writing piece on my life. Maybe i should get a new hobby, maybe i should quite ranting and face it without a doubt.
"to love someone is to embrace someone with open arms".
i hope this works.

Friday, November 26, 2010

been away for too long and starting to forget

I imagine many things.
I sometimes think about what would happen if I ever become a recognized artist, would I need any body guards? Would my girlfriend who swear to not marry me until I have a "more secure and stable" job suddenly want to marry me? Would my family finally think of me as a worthy member? Will my life be any different than what I have now?
Probably not.
I have learned many things all while adapting into this asian society I am somewhat familiar with now.
First, being rude is okay as long as you have no business with the said person or company. However, if you do, be polite because you might one day need their help.
I hope I am making sense with this.
Second, before you stick your nose in someone else's business, make sure if there is any liabilities you might endure later. Even if that is life/ death situation. Example: traffic accident, two elderly members of our society struck down by a car. Car driver standing looking at the said elderly members on the ground, not doing anything. People starting to come out of their life to check out the situation, but no one is taking action.
LIABILITY is spelled with L, I, A, B, I, L, I, T,and Y.
Third, you will never know as much as your girlfriend because evidently, she has been living here longer then you. Her word of wisdom counts, you don't. Your worldly experience don't mean shit, because this is Taiwan. And, she knows more about it than you.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

The Littlest Things Can Tell A Story

I was half an hour late to my storytelling group meeting with my students' parent at the Kaohsiung Museum of Fine Arts, Children Art Campus. Naturally, they were gone already but I was forced to stay to listen to uncle chubby with a head gear microphone tell a story about seven brothers with seven different disabilities. I took me only about five minutes to decide it was time to leave. On top of all that, the humidity and the heat were unbearable when standing outdoor, kids' loud scream wasn't helping, too.
Being a children art campus, the place was littered with kids, most of them are from the near by kindergartens with matching uniforms. Most of these kindergartens, shown with pride, all have slogans/ advertisements on their children's uniform. "Best bilingual kindergarten education in town", one school proclaimed. Teachers were yelling at kids in broken english while the foreign teachers stared in awl with admirations wondering why the locals try so hard to learn a language that don't really belong to them, let along forcing these little brains to process it without learning the essential requirements of being a successful, well, KID, first.
So I left the children art campus because I couldn't stand all the screaming, kicking, broken english and the smear on the faces of those foreign teachers. The weather is still humid and the sun is still blazing hot; I walked for about ten minutes across the sculpture garden with a muddy lake to the main building for some fine arts.
The museum lobby reminds me of the old museum of arts in Davenport, Iowa. Even though the size of the buildings are completely incomparable; the one in Kaohsiung is like a huge memorial and the one in Davenport was more of like a library with only three galleries. "Minimal Means and Maximum Effects- Joseph Alberts Exhibition" is the main feature in the grand exhibition space. I figured more time was required to check out the exhibition, So I skipped it and went for the small gallery space right underneath the lobby. The exhibition downstairs features some taiwanese and french conceptual artists. nothing was out of the ordinary in the sense of the exhibition being a" conceptual" art; colors interacting with both relative space and lights, unconventional materials coupled with use of language with hidden meanings, and biomorphic forms overlapping with mechanical shapes. I was enjoying the exhibition for its conventionalism. Out of no where, from the conner of my eyes, I saw a group of museum volunteers walking by the gallery entrance. Immediately, I had a thought about chilling with a group of turkeys on the farm in Iowa. Those museum volunteers were talking so loud my attention was completely diverted. I was so focused on deciphering the meaning of some of the art pieces, getting disrupted in the middle of it really pissed me off. None the less, I decided to be the bigger person and just kept to myself. MISTAKE! Some of them were so uneducated in the arts of gallery viewing they were touching the artworks, without wearing any gloves. I got pissed off royally this time.
Granted, it is not really my business wether the art pieces get destroyed by greasy fingers or not, nor my responsibility to tell the museum staff they need do a better volunteer training in the future. I did not mean to cause a ruckus and eventually had five museum staffers apologizing to me while promising to provide a quality art viewing environment in the future.
I was just, simply put, furious. Mad at littlest things such as the smear on the foreign teachers faces, people talking loudly and touching art works in the galleries.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Dedicating my seemingly endless time into creating myself into a useless internet meme

It has been 4 months since I landed in this abyss of culture. Or, is it the environment I am in right now makes it impossible to enjoy what I thought was just simply part of everyday life. Life music, great wine, simple yet delicious food, fine women, great friends and long bike rides. Crap, I dont even have the luxury to bath in clean air. According the Taipei Times, an english language news publication based in Taiwan, the city of kaohsiung, which happens to be the city I reside, has the lowest air quality when compared with all the cities on this tiny island. Simply amazing!
Acceptance, as defined by the ever evolving wikipedia, as when a person knowingly experiences something, usually with negative connotation, he or she abstains from it. I have accepted the tragedy that there is a possibility I will never be able to return to my old glorious days of poor yet lavish lifestyle ; poor in the materialistic senses, lavish in spirits. My life has been in a stalemate.
As I sit on the couch covered with my grandparents' old bamboo mat, looking toward the light right on top of me while dwell in the abyss, the memory of the past haunts me like booze, boobs, and a breath of fresh air.